Hey guess who sucks at blogging

(hint: it’s me)

Volunteering is going fine though I am increasingly reluctant each week to go hang out at Mom’s workplace (JCPenney’s) from 9 till 12 until she goes on lunch and can take me over to the Humane Society. Once I’m there though my reluctance fades away; those dogs are just so cute and so in need of love. There’s an especially adorable spitz named Angel who has a curly fluffy tail and I LOVE HER I WANT TO TAKE HER HOME ARGH NEED HER CUTENESS NOW.

Also puppies are assholes. Just going to say that.

I emailed my guidance counselor and finally got my schedule straightened out, in addition to learning that I CAN indeed take Greek zero period. Yesssss. Something else to put on my college application.

Speaking of college, Mom and I are going on college visits this and next Wednesday. I just hope she’s not still sore about me skipping Humane Society today. She walked in my room and said “WHAT are you still doing in bed? Why aren’t you dressed and ready to go?” I casually rolled over, said “I don’t feel like going”, rolled back over, and went to sleep. She angrily walked off so I might have to watch out when she gets home today.

No matter how much time I spend in the sun I just don’t tan at all ;(. I spend like two hours mowing the lawn in the hot hot sun and only my shoulders get any darker. I practically glow when I go outside. It’s not faaaaaiiiiiiirrrr.

I have nothing else to say. Go away. No rage for you today.

Also I forgot to mention I have a facebook now. It’s all right, I guess. I check it about once a day.

Yawwwwn

Hey ho I’m not dead. Yet.

Finally had surgery to remove the tooth from my sinus cavity about two or three weeks ago. Took a while to recover and for the stitches to dissolve, but DAMN do I feel good. No mysterious headaches, I can lie on my left side without worries, and plus my parents get 300 bucks for the botched surgery. Woo! Add that to the $1500 my dad got as an award for doing a hella awesome job on one of the buildings he worked on and we are ballin’.

So school’s out, finally. I swear this was my worst year yet. But I got all A’s this semester (yay).

This whole ‘block scheduling’ thing is destined to go down the drain, I know it. Glynn Academy is going on block scheduling, for those not in the know, which means one semester we’ll take 4 classes in a 2-hour block (I think?), and the other semester we take 4 other classes. Or pretty much that. Which is fine for those kids who are trying to get all their credits to graduate, but it pretty much screws Honors and AP students in the ass. So then they came up with “skinnies”–one “block” would consist of two 45 (I think) minute classes, and would go on all year. That actually works for the AP classes, I guess, but it doesn’t mean the students (and the teachers) don’t resent the change.

I really don’t give a shit, to tell the truth. I’m not taking any AP Exams, so all this shit about ‘we’re fucked for the AP Exam’ doesn’t mean anything to me. But I went in before school ended to the guidance counselor to work out my schedule for the next year. Good thing I did. My schedule had NO LITERATURE AT ALL (which I need to graduate), the wrong math (she had me down for Pre and AP Calculus, which I sure as hell am not taking), and something else I’m not remembering. So I worked it out so instead of Calculus I would take Tennis first semester and AP Statistics second semester. I asked her “Will this work out with the master schedule?” She told me yes, and so I left, satisfied.

Well, we got our preliminary schedules yesterday. I checked mine; it was fine, except for that she STILL had me for Calculus. Seriously what the fuck. I stressed it so hard to her that I did not want to take Calculus I might as well screamed it through a loudspeaker. So I sent an email, and if I don’t get the reply I want god save her soul I will go ballistic. I’ve had such a shitty time in Trig this year; I don’t want to go through it in AP Calculus, especially when I overheard the teacher wondering if she needed to make the class HARDER.

Other than that, I’m happy with my schedule. AP Latin and AP Psychology first block  all year, Journalism second block all year, Pre Calculus first semester and AP Calculus second semester third block (working on it), and AP Literature and AP Econ/Gov fourth block. A decent schedule, though I’m a little confused by the (Day A) next to AP Literature and AP Econ/Gov.

None of this made sense to you did it. HAHAHAHAHA bitch too bad. This blog isn’t for you, it’s for me to release my rage in a healthy way instead of exploding on whoever I’m talking to.

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Also I’ve started volunteering at the hospital. It’s pretty bitching, since I get a free meal for every 4 hours I volunteer, and our hospital has a pretty kickin’ cafeteria. I also started at the Humane Society; I was washing dogs for the Wash N Wag event on Saturday, and I got to see adorable huskies <3.

So that’s it. Go away.

Rage count: 5

It is okay times for Tode

Hooray today’s my birthday and I don’t quite feel like shit anymore.

I still have a headache but it’s being an asshole. It’s kinda like my head doesn’t exactly hurt, but I can feel the headache lurking, waiting for me to lean forward or move my head the wrong way. But this is MUCH better than the Headache of Hell that was plaguing me for most of last week so I’ll take what I can get.

I still can’t chew much; my jaw’s too sore and there’s a piece of bone that refuses to break off and digs into my gums when I chew. So my ginormous chocolate bunny will have to wait ;(. My jaw still aches but it’s bearable.

So yeah. The doctor said he’d take a “wait and see” approach with the tooth that’s in my sinus cavity. Psssh. What the fuck is the tooth gonna do? The tooth has all of three options: Come out of my nose when I sneeze, rip apart my sinus cavity, or just sit there like the little bitch that it is. Unless it goes for the first option (which is very very unlikely but would be very very awesome), that tooth has got to come out. What the fuck is this waiting shit? My cheek fucking hurts, I get nosebleeds every time I sneeze (and sneezing makes me wish I were dead), and it CANNOT be healthy to have a tooth sitting in my fucking sinus cavity. Infections and shit.

But noooo I’m probably going to have to wait until summer. That’s two more months of this shit. I want to just reach into my mouth, rip open my gums, and yank that son of a bitch out myself. I can feel the little fucker sitting in my cheek laughing at me.

Also today’s my birthday! I was very pleased by this year’s birthday. I got several tank tops and a shrug, a sterling silver penguin necklace from my brother, and dearest Eric/foulcoon from osu bought me a subscription to osu! The last one personally was the best because it was so unexpected. He was just “hay how do you like your present” “wut present” “You now have osu!direct surprise” “:O” So sweet. I’m going to marry that dude some day just you wait.

Mom and Dad haven’t bought it yet but I picked out a digital camera that I want (and frankly need). Our digital camera is well over seven years old and fucking huge. It uses a floppy disk for Christ’s sake. And since I’m going to be on the Yearbook staff for school next year (I got in! I’m so happy! I got into Yearbook ammagad you should have seen me scream when I got the acceptance letter) I’m gonna need a camera.

So block scheduling is slowly but unsurely working out for next year. I still need to explain/rage about it. Someone remind me dammit.

Rage count: 4

Someone kill me please

I can’t take it anymore. Had surgery for my wisdom teeth this Monday, and since then it’s been the Spring Break from Hell. Every moment that I’m not sleeping I have a headache or my jaws hurt, and for the first about 36 hours I was vomiting every particle that dared to enter my stomach (this was later discovered to have been caused by my mom accidentally giving me the wrong pill). Vomiting with three bleeding holes in my jaw=not fun times.

I haven’t thrown up in a day, but hurrr de hurr durr Tode just couldn’t let herself have a good night’s sleep. Last night I decided to go ahead and go to bed without taking any sort of medication. Woke up at 12:44 with Shania Twain in my head and raging searing pain in my jaw that only worsened when I lay down. Taking the horse-size Ibuprofen did jack shit, so around 4:44 I took a narcotic, stole my mom’s bed, and blissfully fell into oblivion.

Right now I have about 4 different medications floating in my system: Ibuprofen which is keeping my headache at bay unless I decide to kill myself with Dora the Explorer again, an antibiotic that was the initial cause for my uncontrollable vomiting, birth control pill, and Sudafed to keep my sinus cavities clear because apparantly just as the surgeon was about to take out the last tooth I sniffed and shoomph! Into the sinus the tooth went, so now I have a tooth floating around my sinus cavity and giving me the occasional nosebleed. Do you have any idea how unpleasant it is to have a nosebleed when you’re trying to go the bathroom?

I can’t just sleep all the time; that gives me a headache. I can’t just watch TV all the time; that gives me a headache. What can I do? I have no fucking idea.

s;dfj;alkjsfeo I just want to fucking curl up and die.

woop there goes anatomy

So we (we being high school juniors) chose our sciences–if we were taking any–for our senior year. I chose anatomy because A) I sure as hell am NOT taking AP Physics with that crazy bitch who’s trying to teach me something resembling physics this year, nor am I taking AP Chemistry, and AP Environmental Science just sounds boring. Also AP Biology would involved dissecting things and I am just not up for that. *cough* and B) Anatomy is easy, looks good, and I have all of my older brother’s notes, answer to questions from the book, and even a few color-coded diagrams. Bitchin’~

But today I talked to some juniors who are taking Anatomy this year. Apparantly there’s a different teacher than from my brother’s time. No biggie. The notes will still be useful, and I have the answers to the book. ^_^

Nope. They’re using a different book.

Well at least I still have diagrams. At least I won’t have to draw anything.

Aw fuck it what the hell’s the point. I wouldn’t even take Anatomy if it were up to me–I’d much rather take AP Psychology. I’m so fucking angry (what else is new). All I want to do senior year is just sit back and cruise through a few AP credits, go to a few Beta Club and National Honors Society meetings to bolster my resume, and not have as many fucking near-meltdowns as I have had this year. Seriously? I’m barely passing Trig right now. I just don’t get it. I’m finally starting to make A’s on the tests, but it’s my fucking quiz grade that’s dragging me down. raaaagh. Not to mention I’m struggling to drag my grade in AP Latin to an A while the others are just cruising on by. How the fuck are they doing that?

Lessee. What classes AM I taking next year? I haven’t had an opportunity to sort it out.

Fifth math: Statistics (AP if I’m feeling suicidal come registration time)

Fourth science: Anatomy (ffff)

Fourth language arts: AP English (easy peazy)

Fourth social studies: AP Government/AP Economics (both are taught in a semester and so just go together)

Elective one: Journalism (though it’s actually just Yearbook)/Driver’s Ed if my mom insists on it

Elective two/fourth year of Latin: AP Latin

Hopefuls: AP Psychology, maaaaybe Tennis again

See, w/o the hopefuls that’s six classes, though with this stupid block scheduling shit (a rage for another post), I should be able to take eight. I really want to take AP Psych. Worst comes to worst, I’m going to put my foot down and refuse to take Driver’s Ed. I can take it over the summer, but Mom is insisting that I take it twice. No. No fucking way. It’s a waste of money and an elective. I could have taken it this year, but I decided to take AP European History instead.

Gooooood. I want to see if I can try a zero/ninth period class, but I don’t even know how that’ll work with block scheduling. Goddamn do I hate our school board. Bunch of stupid bastards.

Rage count: 2

Argh fuck you Medeus

Fuck you and your army of manaketes. Navarre’s just traipsing along and BAM MANAKETE RAPE. Always when I forget to equip a wyrmslayer.

*cough* Playing the “new” Fire Emblem game and I’m on the last chapter and I would easily win if it weren’t for those fucking manaketes and ballista arrrrrgh stop shooting my healers. I need them you assholes.

I’m a huge Fire Emblem fan. Played every one that’s come to the US, though Radiant Dawn and Sacred Stones were kind of lacking. Radiant Dawn because of its shitty support conversations/fucking hard final chapter (I can never beat that chapter without losing someone) and Sacred Stones because it’s waaaaaaay too easy. Shadow Dragon is good as well, but I feel like an asshole judging it because it’s such an old game. There’s barely any character development; Marth and Nyna/Nyrna whatever are the only ones who really say anything worthwhile, with everyone else just giving you their joining dialogue and then fading into the background.

That being said, the 3-D is a nice touch. Very pretty. It made me squee the first time someone attacked me. And this is the first FE game where I’ve actually allowed my characters to die. I’ve lost two so far and was so far ahead in the chapter I was just “no fuck you I’m not starting over”. But you do get a staff at the very end that lets you revive one character–awesome! Or it would be if I hadn’t lost those two at low levels, so I’m bringing them into the last chapter that’s filled with dragons and rape.

So I’m deciding to be clever, and the next time those asshole ballista kill my healer (Lena), I’ll just use the staff to revive her. Ohohoho.

Also my cuticles hurt. And you probably just read an entire post that you didn’t understand at all. Hurrrrrrrr

Rage count: 1

Sup ladies

It’s Todesengal yaaaaaay. After I post this I’m going to be pimping out my page but I’m posting this so I don’t have that gay “hello world hurrr” post on the front page.

I’m probably gonna talk about everything from osu (an online game I can’t stop playing) to my latest rages about school. There will be cursing, so if you don’t like cursing…sucks to be you.

kthxbye